summary: just reead, it's hard to explain...=D but its kind of fluffy and you should read it and i'll be your best friend forever
Craig had fears, and regrets. He was scared. His fingers where shaking. He had never done this with him before. He never thought it’d get this far with him. Craig was surprised he wasn’t thrown away yet.
But Julian stood in front of him waiting. He was far away from him, but so very close. Julian was naked and right in front of him. Craig was clothed and felt miles away. He wanted to burst into tears and hide, but he wanted to get naked and love Julian. He didn’t know what to do.
His heart pattered with each step Julian took closer to him. He didn’t know how any of this happened and he didn't know how to get out of it.
Julian looked at Craig. He needed to protect Craig from everything. It was his life duty. He was scared of his job but knew he was the only one that could do it. He knew he had to make sure Craig was safe, but most importantly felt safe.
Julian loved Craig. Craig loved Julian. But he was scared. He had never been this scared before. Julian put his warm hands on Craig’s cold shaking waist. He talked in a calming friendly voice. Craig’s blood stopped boiling. Craig looked up at Julian. He told Craig he was beautiful, and Craig didn’t believe him.
Craig's lower lip quivered, and Julian touched it with his index finger. He assured Craig that he was beautiful and no one was but him. Julian touched Craig's face, and it was burning with embarrassment because Julian was naked and he wasn’t, and because he didn’t know if he wanted to be naked with him or not. He told Julian he was afraid of what would happen to them. Afraid that one of them would change. Afraid of what would happen to everyone else if the knew. Julian told Craig that it was all right to be afraid.
Julian stared in Craig's eyes. He could see the battle going on inside Craig. He could see Craig's desire, and his fear. He could see Craig’s temptations, and his holding. He touched Craig's shoulder. He was marveled at how Craig could be so cold, but so hot at the same time. Craig's hair was sweating, but his arms and hands were freezing.
Craig’s trembling fingers touched the hem of his shirt. Julian put his hands on Craig’s delicate hands. Craig looked at him closely. Neither of them had a readable expression. Craig gently pulled his and Julian’s hands up and pulled his shirt over his head. His pale chest shined and Julian was overwhelmed at how beautiful Craig really was. He could see almost every vein. He watched his chest rise and fall fast as they stood in the room.
Craig began to fumble with his belt. His finger tips sweating. Julian touched Craig’s fingers and Craig slowed down. Craig put his hands on the inside of Julian's elbows. He looked at Julian and pressed his lips hard into them. His eyes pressed closed as tight as they could. His heart beating faster then any distance runners.
Then he let go. Julian stared. Craig panicked. Julian held onto Craig. He slowly began to undo Craig’s belt. Craig felt scared and ready at the same time.
Julian laid a finger on the button of Craig's jeans. Craig was scared he’d undo it, but more afraid that he wouldn’t. He slowly undid the button. Craig’s heart felt weak and excited.
Craig took Julian’s fingers and pulled the zipper down. Julian looked at Craig’s eyes. Craig’s jeans fell around his ankles. His stomach lurched. Julian put his hands on the elastic of Craig's boxers. He could see Craig’s hard penis under the plaid fabric. He pulled down Craig’s underwear.
And something happened. Craig’s inhibitions disappeared. He felt a dizzy spell, And they collapsed onto each other. Craig explored Julian’s body for the first time. It was like a pirate finding buried treasure. They felt something the never felt before. Craig did something he’d never dreamed of before. They fit into each other almost perfectly. The came together in such a perfect beautiful way that they could never experience with anyone else. And they knew that it would only be them, for the rest of there live
*gets a bit teary eyed* *hey, it's late, i'm emotional at night* Gorgeous and sexy and innocent all at the same time. It has alt of emotion in it, their fears and excitement mixed. Very very wonderful. :)
Thanks for posting, it's been a while since someone posted a new Craig/Jules story. =P